As much as I love my house I really do miss having the internet. I didnt even think that when we moved back out the country we would not be able to get anything but dial up... booooo dial up!
So here I sit at Steves parents house where we frequently come now to hoard their internet.
I guess its time for an update, where to begin.
First of all. I start school in 2 weeks... ahhhh
I know to most people its not a big deal, woopdy-dooo. I however am NOT a fan of school. back in grade 9/10 I was on the honor roll and loved going in everyday. needless to say things happend to change that. mainly my moms accident and the insane amount of pressure that caused. I wont get into the details now but in the end I left highschool with such regret I cant even tell you. I NEVER wanted to be a drop out nooo way! I pretended like it was the best decision even though I knew it was not. It has been my biggest regret. It has made me shy around people I went to highschool with. I had great friends in highschool that since I droped out I have been to afraid to talk to... whats that about? I have no idea. I start talking to someone that I have missed, make plans to get toghether and then chicken out.
are they going to point and laugh at me for it? the Kortney I was in highschool would not have cared one bit if they did. I miss those care free highschool days, and the great friends.
So now that I am starting back to school I have the same fears of being judged, or that I will not be able to handle it. I dont remember how to properly structure and Essay or how to put together a presentation for a class.
Steve tells me everyday that I can do anything. that he is there to support me. I really want my girls to get a great education and NOT go the hard route like I did. So here I go... I start in 8 days !
Everyone has been asking me what I am going to do. well I am going to Everest to take their Personal Support Worker course. Again I know to most people thats not a bid deal at all. the reason I chose Evesest is simply because their schedule works SOO well with being a mom and Steve working. I will go to class from 5 to 9 everyday, so I will only have to leave the girls for an hour or two a day with family untill Steve gets home from work and can pick them up.
wish me luck :)
Now my girls... my beautiful girls.
Have I mentioned how different it is to have two?
With Emma for the most part I really lucked out, Ive never had to deal with much public tantrums, she goes to bed with out fuss. She brushes her own teeth and is smarter than me. If only she would figure out that a pull up is not the same as her potty we would be golden.
Hailey is SO different than Emma was, She is very vocal and LOUD lol.
she is almost crawling but she can get everywhere she wants by rolling anyway. I am very very guilty of Co-sleeping with Hailey. Her and I sleep in the basement because she was up SO much in the night it woke everyone up. Now we just havnt gotten out of the habit. She still wakes up in the night but at 7 months there is no reason for her not to be in a crib other than the fact that we havnt technically put one up for her yet... horrible I know. that is priority # 1 next week though.
I have so much more to write but Emma is asking for more cereal and Hailey waiting patiently for her breakfast.
love and rockets.
hey girl, I never judged you (in fact, I didn't even remember that about highschool!) Also, I am so excited that you're going back to school. It is quite the accomplishment. Even in your writing I can tell that you have changed and grown as a woman, and I think it's wonderful. The way you talk about your family is incredible! Also, I found that bracelet you made for me way back that says "Gary"....I'll never have the heart to throw it away! xoxo
ReplyDeleteIs it bad that I don't remember you not in highschool either? I always remember you being the girl that was someone not to mess with, even though I've known you since we were only 8 years old LOL. You are more then just Korky now, You are Mama Korky :P
ReplyDeleteSo jealous of you going back to school. I've longed for the day of going and getting a degree in accounting, but just haven't had the will to do it. I can't function in the real world anymore like my annoying bubbly self did way back in the day. Who would of thought the girl who never shut up and talked to everyone can barely hold down a conversation with real life people :P
Good luck in school! I so couldn't imagine doing it until my guys are moved the hell out. Parenting + school = TOO MUCH FOR ME! Props to you having not only the energy, but the drive to do it :)
I still co-sleep with Toby (he has his open sided crib up against my bed) and he still wakes up two or three times a night. Some kids just need the added comfort and attention. Don't feel guilty if you feel that it works for you. If you want to make the change then do it very gradually, or get Steve to try to put her to bed some nights.
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